Stop projecting your feelings about yourself onto God. That is going to be wrong 100% of the time. Don’t assume He has the negative thoughts about you that you have about yourself. God does not think the way you think. He does not see you the way you see yourself. Let God speak for Himself.
Because I loved you before you knew it was love,
And I saw it all - still I chose the Cross.
And you were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave.
Now rid of the shackles, My victory’s yours.
I tore the veil for you to come close.
There’s no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You’re not far from home.